Torn.

Since I realized that people aren't going to want to send their personal stories to some random girl on the internet, I decided that I should probably start writing about some of my past experiences just so that people that happen to come by my blog can see that I really do have advice to offer and that I understand what it's like to have a problem and not knowing what to do about it. Saying this, I also know from experience that it always helps a ton to talk to someone about it. It doesn't matter who. Whether it's some random girl on the internet, a counsellor, a friend, a family member, or even a reliable acquaintance. It always helps to acknowledge your fears and your troubles and to express them.

Right now, I have been going through the toughest time of my life. I recently went back to my home in the Philippines and visited my family for a month. I haven't seen them in 5 years and I felt like I was literally walking on air. I felt so light and happy and glowing and just like I'd found my place. But when the time came, and I thought I should feel excited to come back here, in Canada but the reality was, I wasn't. I was happy where I was and I couldn't see myself anywhere else. But the thing is, I grew up in Canada and I have my friends and some extended family and my dad and school and all those things that had seemed so real to me just over a month before then, and I knew I had to get back to it all and get back to my life. It wasn't easy, and it still isn't. I still have trouble sometimes sleeping alone or sometimes I even cry myself to sleep out of loneliness. The reality is that I'm feeling more torn now than I have EVER felt before. It's hard to deal with but that's just part of life.

My story.

I'm actually an average 14 year old teen girl with nothing much special about me. I go to school, hang out with friends, spend a lot of time with family, and that's all pretty normal. The one thing that is sort of interesting about me is I'm incredibly shy sometimes, but I love to help people and talk to people and help work out problems and just make people's lives easier. I love knowing that I've helped someone who's having a hard time in life and needs to know that they are special and that they have value that no one else knows. I've fallen for someone, I've had someone taken away from me, and I've had experiences with abuse and family problems. I know what it's like to be in pain, and I'm glad to say that I've had someone help me through those times and I'd just like to give that opportunity to someone else. This is a blog where people can send me emails to this address LIZ_ELIZ1234@shaw.ca asking for advice on anything and I will post an answer here. So please, don't be afraid to share things with me. You don't have to give me any information, and it can be completely anonymous.  I'd really just like the opportunity to help. <3 thank you.